alexputyourpantsbackon: Sometimes I wonder if people who don’t read truly know what they’re missing. Maybe they just haven’t read the right book yet. To me, there is nothing quite like getting lost in a novel. And I don’t mean just enjoying a book. I mean staying up half the night, hiding it under your desk, reading more than eating until you’ve finished the book kind of enjoyment. In a movie everything is just handed to you, but in a book you can paint the places and characters in your mind however you want to. It is special interpretation belonging only to you. You can experience everything on a much more emotional, personal level. You don’t just see what a character is doing, you hear their thoughts and feel what their feeling. A character in a book, if written well, is more real to me than a character on the screen could ever be.

Happy Chinese New Year! But I don’t if I could go out tonight…No, I must go out tonight! Argh! But I don’t have any idea where to spend the night in. The events in my area are scheduled until the dead of night, some transportation will be cut off by then. Oh well, come what may, as long as I’m safe. I just wanna have some le sexy time.

So yeah, I’m still awake. Busy designing the farm house. I got message from the client telling me everything he wants me to consider for the house, which is actually a good thing. He wants a “large front” which actually mean a wide patio/porch and vestibule in the entrance, 3 to 4 bedrooms with toilets each, a grand living room, a kitchen with dining and a two car garage. And I just knew that the lot is BIG. [Ah, architecture, I’m beginning to appreciate you more!]

I was thinking instead of paying me money, and since the client is related to me by blood [lucky me!], maybe he could just buy me air-tickets to Manila and a concert pass to the Evanescence concert this February!!! Well, yeah, I’ve calculated: the air-ticket + the concert pass is lower than my actual fees! Hmm…maybe I should also ask for pocket money, Manila is such a big city. What do you guys think?

Gotta focus and finish everything before the deadline! And I thought my 2012 will be boring…guess I was wrong! I’m so happy for this opportunity. Keep ‘em coming! :-)

Hello guys! I got good news for y’all! I was ‘commissioned’ to design another house in the province! [Let it clear, I’m not yet an architect, my Dad’s the architect.] But the client likes my ‘design taste’ (as he place it) so he wants me to do the designing! I think that’s fine (for a graduate to design) according to the law of the land, as long as there is a real/licensed architect behind the project.

I can’t promise to update you guys about the designing. Maybe after all the construction is done! Wish me luck, everyone!

texturism:

[revisiting. my voice, words by dear sugar]

i’ve written often about how it is we have to reach hard in the direction of the lives we want, even if it’s difficult to do so. i’ve advised people to set healthy boundaries and communicate mindfully and take risks and work hard on what actually matters and confront contradictory truths and trust the inner voice that speaks with love and shut out the inner voice that speaks with hate. but the thing is—the thing so many of us forget—is that those values and principles don’t only apply to our emotional lives. we’ve got to live them out in our bodies too.

yours. mine. droopy and ugly and fat and thin and marred and wretched as they are. we have to be as fearless about our bellies as we are with our hearts.

real change happens on the level of the gesture. it’s one person doing one thing differently than he or she did before. it’s the man who opts not to invite his abusive mother to his wedding; the woman who decides to spend her saturday mornings in a drawing class instead of scrubbing the toilets at home; the writer who won’t allow himself to be devoured by his envy; the parent who takes a deep breath instead of throwing a plate. it’s you and me standing naked before our lovers, even if it makes us feel kind of squirmy in a bad way when we do. the work is there. it’s our task. doing it will give us strength and clarity. it will bring us closer to who we hope to be.

you don’t have to be young. you don’t have to be thin. you don’t have to be “hot” in a way that some dumbfuckedly narrow mindset has construed that word. you don’t have to have taut flesh or a tight ass or an eternally upright set of tits.

you have to find a way to inhabit your body while enacting your deepest desires. you have to be brave enough to build the intimacy you deserve. you have to take off all of your clothes and say, i’m right here.

- dear sugar, tiny revolutions | via my voice, not my words series